Bummer news – I did not get the job that I was hoping for. I got the official notification today – although I heard it through the rumor mill last week.
I have been unsure of how to write this post. After all, the individual who did the hiring has access to this website. She is really nice – please don’t get me wrong – but I don’t want anything I say to sound like “sour grapes.” It isn’t sour grapes…it is just the reality of the situation. I don’t know why they hired who they hired – I don’t know why I wasn’t hired…so it is really impossible to speculate or to blame anyone. For whatever reason – I was not the best candidate for the jobs.
I have been afraid to say too much – because of the situation. After all, even if a person wins a battle…they often lose the war! I know that way too well!! I have never, ever censored this blog before…it has always been truth…so I have decided not to censor today’s post.
I am truly brokenhearted about not getting the job. Wednesday night I had 1/4 of a Sara Lee Pound Cake, Half a pint of Hagen Das Ice Cream and a bowl of strawberries for dinner. To make matters worse…my husband was away…so I already felt like I was missing an arm! The work goes on…disappointments happen…but you can’t stop the mission. I am tired, though. Tired of the fight. Not tired to the point that I will quit…after all – a good soldier doesn’t stop in the middle of a war. We are at war – a war to stop the most dishonorable conduct – the rape and sexual abuse of our fellow servicemembers.
So – I am just going to be honest about the heartbreak…walk away and lick my wounds…and come back to fight another day.
Thank you all for your warm thoughts.